karskarsekar

it was nine, there was no sun.
the messenger of mine, ready to run
while delivering a letter, in that rainy november.
but i said 'no', smiled and told her not to go.
i couldn't always say hi and curiously wait for the reply.

it was ten, the moon raised his hand.
my messenger was standing, she was waiting for me writing.
'be patient, messenger. i'm seeking for a good starter'
but a pop up window broke my sorrow.

as his name was miracle.

Beckett's question is being my personal question lately. Not only because I'm being so crazy-in-love with that play; Waiting for Godot; but I found so many great quotes that are so well-connected to life. At least, life of mine.

And again, I'm questioning: "To-morrow, when I wake, or think I do, what shall I say of to-day?"]

I suppose, tomorrow will be different than today. In fact, I'm pretty much sure about that. By different, it can be better or worse. Of course, I prefer the first one. Oh, who wants things turn into bad? Wise men say: "tomorrow will be better than today". The optimistic ones even say "tomorrow MUST BE better than today".

But I say: "What it means by better and worse will be different tomorrow"

Yeah. We may have our own definition of better and worse - what we call by good or bad conditions, but who can guarantee that our definition will last forever? Let's say we are so crazy in love with particular person today that it will feel like the end of the world if we lost him or her (ok, a bit exaggerating). but who knows if tomorrow we find a very new-fresh-yummy one (well I'm not sure with that words but hey, you know what I mean) that can make us fall in love, deeply in love, by the first sight (No, I don't believe in love at the first sight, but I just take an example). So what do you feel about it? Do you really think the same way as yesterday? Do you? Ah, even My Chemical Romance can say, "I don't love you, like I did yesterday..."

I guess that's life. Sometimes we may ask, "Tomorrow, what shall I say about today?"

Sometimes, and you'd better not question it the other times. Just sometimes.

Why? Because we have no idea.
Why? Because life easily changes.

Why?
Because nothing last forever but the change...

i believe people have 2 lives: life to share with others and their own life.

sometimes, i need to be alone, my very own moment, and think i deserve it.

sometimes when i think i need time for myself, others come and ruin it. they don't really mean to ruin it anyway. they just don't understand. they want to be helped or to be heard, at times i want to be alone.

now the question is, who should understand?

me or them?

whose ego is speaking?

cause i've been keeping my sorrow.
for the coming tomorrow.

been hooked in a web cage.
for the pop up page.

cause i know it will be 9 in the morning.
time for the next writing.

yes, i won't hate if it's late.
cause there will be another minute for the spirit.

and when there's a silent call.
let me bang my head to the wall.

9 in the morning.
less or more, though

now that i'm questioning,
why should so?

i'm the bound and u're the free morpheme.
together we create our words.
different yet homophones.
compounding as soulmate,
oh heart blending.

we create our own acronymy,
only us know what it stands for.

cause when u come with verbs, i come with adverbs,
u're the article and i'm the noun.

let me be your pronoun whenever you want me to,
and i let u be my present and future.

we don't need past tense,
just bring our dictionary for more vocabulary.

i ask my logic, "may i?"
he just shakes his head and sigh.

i ask my heart, "may i?"
she just shrugs and passes me by.

i ask those with logic and heart, "may i?"
they just laugh and ask me why.

so i stand in front of a mirror.
and ask that sinner.

"you may", says she.

because i just want to find someone
to let me fall down.
just one more time.

Today (or let's say, this week) i'm not gonna write any poem, or song, or any random quiz i got from facebook. I'm gonna write about something that is being my interest lately. Actually, it was; it is, again. It is Grease. Do you know what is Grease? Well here we go:


I you have no idea who they are, you may just leave this post or keep reading curiously. If you already know who they are, you may scream excitedly cause you love them or.. no, you must love them, no 'or'. hoho ;D

Well, they are Sandy and Danny (oh what a 70's name). They are the main characters of Grease, the musical movie which was made in 1978. The characters were played by Olivia Newton John (Sandy) and John Travolta (Danny).
So let me repeat. It's a musical movie. It's a70's musical movie. Perhaps you are asking now "Why are you so oldies?"

What can i say? I love musical movies and this is the best musical movie ever. Well i also watch High School Musical by Disney, and though Sharpay has a nose-job that makes her look creepy, i still love it (hey, i think we are talking about Grease, not High School Musical). Ok, back to the topic. So the first reason is that i love musical movies. You know, it's wonderful to see people living a life just like us, but they have a background music when they are sad or happy, and they also have cool places to dance and sing with their lover and friends.. it's sooo beautiful! (well, sounds like Bollywood eh? ok, lack of trees and bushes). And the second reason is that Grease is the best musical movie ever! (ok perhaps i just repeated my first sentence) Well, don't expect me to write any review or summary here (cause i'm already hectic with those two things). I just want to share it, and you'd better not underestimate it before you watch!

My fave part is when Sandy and Danny are singing "Summer Nights" (yes, it's the title of the song) while dancing (please don't imagine it as a belly dancing. It's not Bollywood), in the separated places. The song told about their first meet at the beach when summer (so it's called "Summer Nights". Make sense huh?) I love the way their move. It's so natural, just like when you tell a story to your friends. In the other hands, it's unnatural. (seriously, what would your friends say if you sing or dance while telling a story, in this real-pathetic life?) Uh, I love that part sooo much! I have the video (and being a copyright law breaker by downloading it from youtube) and i play it like.. so many times! You have to watch it! HAVE TO!

Watching great musical movies (and Grease is one of them) makes me think, life would never be boring if we just do it like it is in the movies. Happy dancing, happy singing, sad dancing, sad singing.. Sometimes i imagine we live in such life. Ok, perhaps the main difficulty is that we have to memorize many dances and songs. And who will be the choreographer anyway? ? ? ?

(see how movie makes you!)

Using only songs from ONE ARTIST, cleverly answer these questions. Pass it on to 25 (as many people as you like including me). You can't use the artist I used. It's a lot harder than you think! Post as "My Life According to (ARTIST NAME)".

My Life According to Jason Mraz.

Pick Your Artist:
* Jason Mraz

Are you male or female?
* Only Human

Describe yourself:
* Beauty in Ugly :D

How do you feel?
* Lucky

Describe where you currently live:
* The Darkest Space

If you could go anywhere, where would you go?
* The Right Kind of Phrase

Your favourite form of transportation:
* Plane

Your best friend:
* Geek in The Pink

Your favourite colour is:
* Rainbow Connection

What is the weather like?
* Summer Breeze

Favourite time of day:
* After an Afternoon

If your life was a T.V. show, what would it be called?
* Too Much Food. *haha seriously*

Your relationships:
* I Melt With You xp

Your fear:
* All That Lies

What is the best advice you have to give?
* Make It Mine

If you could change your name, you would change it to:
* Bella Luna

Thought for the day:
* Did You Get My Message? *yeah it's hard to talk to men. what language should i use? rarrwh

How I would like to die:
* Common Pleasure

My soul's present condition:
* Mr.Curiosity

My Motto:
* Life is Wonderful

What's yours? ;)

sitting in front of my computer
doesn't mean i'm not doing something useful.
you say, i should get up and go, it's better
but it's like you ask me to leave my work, that's uncool.

if i don't immediately get up and go
it doesn't mean i'm not listening.
what you ask me to do, i know
but first just let me finish my writing.

i'm gonna do exactly what you want me to
but please be patient with the L word.

LATER on..



*being interrupted while seriously doing something is annoying!

i'm lying on my bed and my memory's flying.
to somewhere in time when i was just a little child playing.
and you were there, smiling.
i called your name asking u to come with me.

when my mom and dad became annoying,
when i got upset and all i can do was just crying,
you came to me bringing
your smile and it's your words that could warm me.

*
now that you're gone, now that you're not here.
i just can't see your face anymore.
but i know you're happy, no more pain and tears.
you're in a better place i know.
i know you're watching me from above,
and i know you will always be in my heart.
i'm gonna miss you forever..



26.09.09

"if i'm just dreaming, i wanna wake up immediately.
if i'm not dreaming, i wanna let him go peacefully.

love and goodbye, grandpa :')"

Logic and Heart lives in the same place, same house.
When Logic walks, Heart walks. When Heart stops, Logic stops. But they never walk in the same path nor stop in the same way.
They are different and the never be, never be the same. They aren't friends, but they're too close to be said as foes.

Situation, he is all who makes them stay together.

Situation sometimes makes them meet each other and ask them to talk to each other.
But so often, it ends up with a fight. They love to fight. And, for some reasons, they have to fight.
And only one who can win.

Usually, it's Heart.

But to be a winner, Heart should sacrifice many things. And she will get bruised. Bruises almost everywhere.
And Logic will ask her to give him her place. Her champion place.
Logic is such a stubborn man, but Heart is much more stubborn.

One day, Logic met Heart. He wanted to ask Heart to give up; to give him her trophy and exchange it with her bruises.

"Hey, Heart. How's your doing?", asked Logic.

"Doing fine," said Heart.

"Fine? Are you kidding? You're in pain, Heart! Does your pain make you insane? Hahaha," Logic laughed.

But Heart smiled.

"I'm fine. And i'm happy. And I'm going cause I just don't wanna talk to you. See you, Logic."

Heart was about to go when Logic shouted,

"No! Wait! Why don't you just give up. It can ease your pain. You know that."

"Yes, it can. But..."

"But?"

"If I give up, i don't know what I should say to Love. He would be in pain. More pain than what I'm feeling right now."

Silent.

"Ok," said Logic, "Now, where are you going?"

"There. Somewhere far away from here"

"I'm with you"

"No, Logic. We can't," Heart smiled. "We just can't. And I already have a friend to accompany me"

"Who?"

"Time. She's my best friend."

"I see."

"And later we'll meet each other. With a brand new Situation who will make us fight. Again," Heart just couldn't hide her smile, "And when we meet, I'm sure you won't see these bruises anymore..."

Logic laughed.

"Hahaha! Are you sure, Heart?"

"Pretty much. I've told you whom I am walking with."

"Who?"

"My best friend, Time."

Then they both smiled.
And walked away, without any good bye, cause they know they are gonna meet each other.

Again.

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180909
'Just be patient.'

intermezzo: the word 'music' above means any song that i was listening to or fit my heart the best while writing the post. each post. not the music for the lyric i wrote. i have my own notes and music, anyway :) and u still can find it even on the non-lyric or non-song post :)

ok. back in business.

ANNOYING!!
YEAH, 'THAT PERSON' DISTURBS ME A LOT :(
hmpf. but, instead of swearing and cursing, here i write another lyric of mine. you can figure out what is disturbing me now =.=
btw, i just finished with the notes, perhaps someday i'll sing it directly to the person face, y' all!

NO OFFENSE
written by me :)

You act like you're right
You say the words like you're the truth
but we all know, that you're not

*
cause in every single word you say,
you show the mistake you should pay
and in every single thing you do,
you let everyone knows what's going through

Chorus:
So why don't you, why don't you just shut up?
and throw all your arrogance away
life is fair, baby,
don't you worry?
that someday you will be sorry
Just stop that nonsense, speak your guilty
I guess it will be better for you

Yes you put the angel face, but
I know you curse behind my back
Everybody knows, girl, you can't help yourself

*
Chorus

So bad that you can't hide your fault,
It's getting worse cause you realize, realize
But so pathetic, you don't have time to apologize

Chorus

it was the first week, on the first day
we came into the class and say
'Hey-ho Philosophy!'
we had no idea, wished everything's ok
knew nothing just shout and say
'Hey-ho Philosophy!'

*
what is Philosophy, anyway?
we never know.
what will you talk about sir, by the way?
we never know.
we were gambling while shouting and singing

chorus 1:
'Hey-ho Philosophy!'
where are u gonna bring us to?
what do u think we're gonna bring u?
we don't know, too.
Socrates, and Plato, and Darwin, and Dawkins.
get into our skins
and burn us to say: 'Hey-Ho Philosophy!

and then the curly haired lecturer
who made us wanna say: sir,
'Hey-ho Philosophy!'
he gave us a bunch of paper
some articles to review. oh, sir
'Hey-ho Philosophy'

*
what are these articles about?
we never know!
although we have read them out loud
we never know!
but we are trying and thinking and singing

chorus 2:
'Hey-ho Philosophy!'
where are u gonna bring us to?
what do u think we're gonna bring u?
we don't know, too
'Hey-ho Philosophy!'
stop asking help us see
and understand what you really mean
through this second year scene
Socrates, and Plato, and Darwin, and Dawkins.
get into our skins
and burn us to say: 'Hey-ho Philosophy!

*yeah, it's written by me dedicated to the Philosophy class. well, i'm getting hectic by all those Darwin stuff. i need a sweet escape, so here it is. SING IT! :D